Today as we were crossing the Richmond bridge Mike said "Oh no this is the bridge you hate". It took me a minute to think back and remember all the times I had closed my eyes, hands clenched, labored breathing, in complete fear. My fear of water always took over when I could see it through the cracks on the roadway. Today not one ounce of fear. I do not fear death the least bit. In fact one of my goals is to make it to Heaven. Of course I do not want to die, but I am no longer afraid. Libby taught me that there can be peace in death. That if I walk around worrying about this or that I really am not living at all. All the things that use to make me second guess I am now doing. All my fears were silly compared to the big plan of things. It's amazing how much Libby taught me. I think I'm pretty lucky for all the Libby Lessons I got :)
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16
That beautiful little girl taught us all some pretty strong lessons! Jax and I send hugs!
ReplyDeleteDear Libbys Mom,
ReplyDeletereading about your little girls story is very difficult for me. That is because I was born with pulmonary atresia 37 years ago. Somehow I made it to my 8th birthday and than underwent a kind of surgery that was totally new and just a try and error by than.
I had to have two mor open heart surgerys and one emergency surgery. I was never completly healed but palliated. My Oxygensaturation is 82-85% percent when I am sitting still. If I move it drops to the mid 60%s.
Reading your and Libbys story, I have to imagine my parents and it makes me wonder, why in all of my friends with heart defects I am still alive today.
Mothers do an amazing job by raising their children and I think you did the hardest thing ever done by letting your girl go.
Sorry for the random thoughts but I felt like I had to share them.
If you want to talk or contact me anytime in the future my e-mail-adress is julia.flesch(at)web.de
Cordially yours
Julia